Exhausted...
It's been a rough day. My mind, body and emotions have been exhausted today. I think that's why I chose green for my blog today. It's calming.
I got a couple new students last week. Obviously very late in the year, but I won't go into details about why they came. I will tell you that they are twin boys - identical, but yet so different. One of them has had the misfortune of being labeled by previous schools and teachers as a trouble maker. I don't know what he was like before , but I know he's been through some trauma in the last few months. The thing is, I've only known this child for a week, but I love him. He can be so sweet and funny and smart, but turn into an angry hateful child in a matter of minutes. I reached my point of exasperation with him today, and we had to discipline him. That hurt my heart. I think I've shed as many tears over it as he has. I can't tell you all that happened, but I will ask you to pray for me as I deal with this troubled child. My goal tomorrow is to not have to discipline him, but anticipate the rough spots and love him through them. I hope God gives me the strength to be what this little boy needs during these next 5 weeks.
posted by angi at 8:32 PM
3 Comments:
You're a good teacher Ang...you can handle this. I applaud your loving him through all of this - who knows what he's experiencing when he's not in your classroom?!
Hope tomorrow is smooth sailing for both of you!
Ang, you have one of those hearts that was created especially to teach. You can see beyond the "stuff" that they have to learn and realize that this student has other things going on in his life that is affecting his behavior in and out of the classroom.
My first thoughts when I read this post immediately took me to my memories of your Mom. Loving a child thru difficult circumstances was one of your mother’s most precious gifts, and one I was blessed to be the recipient of, more than once. I'm definitely a better and stronger woman because of her. So, when times are tough and your not sure what to do, or aren't feeling confident, just think about what your mom would say or do. You've learned from the best. You have so many of your mother’s gifts and talents in this area. So many times your mother was “Jesus with skin on” to so many who were lost and hurting. You also have that gift and compassion.
I’m sorry if you are crying right now, I know I am. Know that I didn’t say all this to bring up hard stuff or make you cry, but to encourage you to look within, our ABBA Father will give you the wisdom, love, and endurance (and everything else) you need to love this child thru the next several weeks. I also DO NOT think it is an accident that you were sent this child. You have gifts and talents that need to be shared with this child; you may very well be one of the only places and people in his life to give him this kind of love and attention! It’s usually not easy, but right now you are being called to be “Jesus with skin on” to this child, you can and will do it and make it through. God will take care of the rest, we’re just called to love, support and be there. Being “Loved by Linda” has given me the strength to keep going when things got tough, reach within yourself and draw upon that strength right now, it’s there and so is HE! Love you, Steph
hey angie that child that you were descibing sounds just like my mason! He can be funny and charming one minuet and angry and hateful the next! I have been dealing with him being this way since he was 2 and it has only gotten more challening in the past few months! I am always worn out and emotionally and mentally drained! The best advice that i can say is that the child has gone through something and that this is the only way he knows how to get attention even if its the wrong type! YOu hafto rememeber to not react when he does something on purpose but stay calm and keep the same tone of voice! that way he does not get an reaction from you which is what he is trying to do! he is testing the limits to see how far he can get away with stuff since this is a new place! Just rememeber to breathe and talk to god as you are going through the challenging times with the little one! I keep God at my side at all times because there are days that I am not sure i will make it through to the next one!He has had to have gone through something in his life to be at this point, there are so many things that this child could be dealing with that no one else understands! Try and rememeber to praise him on the good behavior when ever possible taht way he will tend to move away from the negative one! When he is doinghis class work and he i sbeing quiet or calm even for a little bit you can say I really appreciate the way you are doing your class work it make sme smile! he will then try to make you smile or really try to please you! It can be challenging at times but this a child and he has been through alot! I hope that i helped you in some way because I ma dealing with it now and it gets very challenging at times!
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